There was a time when no one knew about this blog and I used to write fearlessly, confident that no one would ever see it so it didn't matter. Then a few people knew about it but I didn't know any of them in real life and they didn't seem to mind when I spewed my raw emotions all over the electronic page, so I still wrote fearless. Heck, I used to confide things here that I wouldn't tell my very best friend even if we were both drunk and telling all of our secrets. I used to love knowing that I could come home from work and get everything out of my head and onto the page. My blog was cheap therapy and it really worked.
Then I started meeting with some of the people who read my blog and that changed things a little. And my husband reads occasionally now. It's pretty easy to find your way here from my Facebook page, too, and everyone in my real life seems to be on Facebook, so they could be reading, too. The final nail in the coffin of my glorious outlet here was when Candace, my 19 year old college student, told me that she reads sometimes, too. I can't put my garbage here if Candace is going to read it. I can't.
So I've stopped writing about everything and anything. Actually, I've pretty much stopped writing here completely. Why bother when I can't write about what I really want to write about?
I've thought about creating a new blog, an anonymous blog, possibly even a locked AND anonymous blog, but it wouldn't be the same.
I like the long-time readers I've had and I love this little place on the Internet because it's such a part of me. It might not be the emotional release that it used to be, but it's mine.
Over the next few weeks, I'm going to think about what I want to do so that I can fall back in love with writing (and potentially spend a bit more time here, too), but in the meantime let me leave you with a few of the pictures I took while I was at Blissdom last week. I'll write a real conference post at some point because it was really life-changing, but the pictures will have to do for now.
Right now it's time to finish dinner and play with my puppy dog. If you're still reading then you're among the very select group of people that I count among my dearest (blog) friends and you are appreciated more than you will ever know. Be well and know that I'll be back very soon. Very soon.