- 6" whole wheat tortilla with two Laughing Cow light wedges + homemade skinny latte (with 8oz nonfat milk) + 1/2c mixed berries = 45g carbs, very low fat
- 2/3c Crispy Brown Rice (gluten free) cereal and 1T slivered almonds sprinkled on 1/2c vanilla organic Greek yogurt with 1/2c mixed berries + homemade skinny latte (8oz nonfat milk) = 46g carbs, low fat
- 1/2c Egg Beaters (scrambled, with or without veggies) on 1 slice whole wheat bread, toasted and spread with 1 wedge Laughing Cow light + 1c. watermelon + homemade skinny latte (with 8oz nonfat milk) = 45g carbs, very low fat
I have exactly thirty-two days from tomorrow morning until my next blood test.
Thirty-two days to prove just how much I've learned since the dark day in May when I heard the bad news.
Thirty-two days to get very, very serious about wanting to - and committing to! - live a long, healthy life with my diabetes (instead of dying a very sick diabetic in a precious few years).
I can do this. I can count my carbs and not go over 45g in a meal. I can give up the sneaky snacks I've been guiltily eating in the middle of otherwise healthy days. (Doesn't matter how natural they are, they're still carbs and calories!) I can get 45-60 minutes of moderate exercise most days of the week.
I can't let my diabetes team (primary care physician, endocrinologist/diabetes doctor, diabetes educator, registered dietician) who have poured so much care and concern into me down. I can't let my friends and family who love and support me down. I can't let all of you down. But most importantly, I can't let myself down. I am worth it. I have value. What I do matters. And I won't be here much longer if I don't do this.
Thirty-two days. Bring it on.