Truly, I have to stop taking video of myself while in the most unflattering light and angles possible - yikes!
Anyway, I'm doing my best to look at testing my blood glucose and calibrating with what I've eaten that day as a scientific experiment and not get emotional about it. It's tough but it seems to be working. I just can't keep beating myself up for every little thing, not just because I'm trying to be kinder to myself but also because stress and frustration raise my blood sugar. (Isn't that a happy little factoid?)
Along the lines of trying to be kinder to myself, I had to take it a little slower than I'd planned last night on the treadmill. I have a training schedule set up for myself in order to get to a 45 minute 5K before Labor Day and that schedule last night said I should be doing 3.3 mph for 25 minutes + 3.6 mph for 5 minutes. I don't know if my body didn't get the message or just didn't care, but it hurt - and not in an "I'm working hard and it feels good" kind of way - when I tried to walk 3.3 mph, so I chose to do 3.0 mph for 30 minutes and 3.3 mph for 5 minutes instead of following the training plan. The difference in calories/sugar burned is just not significant enough to push myself past the edge of pain, so why? Felt great afterward and dinner didn't make me feel yucky, so that's a very good thing, too.
Maybe I'm starting to get into a groove? Man, I hope so.