You can't just stop taking an antidepressant, you have to slowly taper your intake down until you are able to stop completely. Fortunately for me, the taper period for Wellbutrin is only 10 days - I can hardly wait. Right now, I still have many of the same unpleasant symptoms (particularly the constant sweating and afternoon sleepiness) but at least the crushing sadness seems to have lifted, and that's worth whatever other trouble I might run into.
I just feel so overwhelmed with everything. Work is too much. The kids are too much. Reading is too much. TV is too much. (Seriously!) Going to the garden just to water is too much. This is right back where I was when I started on the Wellbutrin a couple of months ago and now I don't know what to try. The office nurse offered to give me samples of another antidepressant (Lexapro) but I know what works for me - brand name Wellbutrin - and I can't afford it, so why try something else? Besides, the side effects and addictive properties of the other antidepressants terrify me and I don't want to risk it.
So many things running through my mind right now:
1. I wish I could see my therapist more than once a month (too many patients, not enough time)
2. I really, really need a nap
3. I'm crawling out of my skin...can't I run away for a while until this stops?
4. If this all turns out to be related to menopause, I'm going to be REALLY pissed off
5. I have so many things I need to do right now and I'm not getting any of them done
6. If I could only get 7 or 8 hours of sleep a night, I think everything would get better
7. I really, really need a nap
It took all the strength I had to stick to my "pretty" morning routine today...taking a shower was an act of supreme will, much less doing the tinted moisturizer and mascara thing. Gah, seriously, I think I might be losing at least part of my mind.