I started this journal as part of an attempt to lose weight and make myself happy. I'm no longer looking for happiness from the numbers on my scale and so I stopped writing here. However...
My lower back hurts. My hips hurt. I couldn't walk the entire 3-Day because I'm so unfit. I don't want to deal with the drama of losing weight again (I've lost and re-gained over 100 pounds three separate times) and I'm also not willing to accept that I'm going to be in pain for whatever is left of my life. So. So?
Here are the facts...I am:
42 years old
5 foot 3 inches tall
51 inch waist
I can't do anything about the first two, but I most certainly can about the third and fourth. I don't know what my plan of action is but I know things must change. I'd really like to hook this all up somehow with my Lead a Healthy Life Project (which has been on a major hiatus of late) so that I can deal with my well-being (or lack thereof) in a holistic way. We'll see. For now, it's enough that I'm putting a stake in the ground, drawing a line in the sand, and am ready to change.