Wednesday, June 01, 2005

A little, bitty manifesto

Wednesday (late) night. Maybe it's the Michael Buble CD playing on my trusty laptop or the endorphins from my Cardio Coach session still coursing through my veins, but I am feeling really strong right now. Yes, I've gained 20 (very hard-fought) pounds back since March. Yes, I made what might turn out to be a big emotional mistake last night with a member of the opposite sex. I've also been putting off major assignments at work. There's the bad news. It's here, as it nearly always is, for anyone who strolls by this little corner of the 'Net to read.

Want to know the good news? The good news is that I'm alive, I'm human, and I'm not giving up. I can lose that 20 pounds again and more, too. I know how to, I've done it before, and my body wants to release that weight. I can visualize it and the path from here to there is not so terribly long or arduous. The boy thing might still turn out not to be a mistake but, even if it is, it's over and I need to put it behind me. Work isn't in disaster mode, I just need to focus and get off my keyster when it comes to action items. Minimum progress is still being made, so it's not such a huge stretch that I can't get back up to speed. I've done such a good job of psyching myself out, but it really isn't hard, it's just a matter of making a commitment to myself and then keeping it.

Yes, I'm getting stronger by the minute and I still have hope, so I know that anything's possible. I won't ever be perfect and I don't need to be, I just need to do a little better than I am right now. This I can do.

12 comments:

Mia Goddess said...

"Again". It's not a bad word! It's rather beautiful.

agategoddess said...

Your darn skippy you can do it! That's the best thing about life, anytime we want we can call a do over. Each morning is a chance to start over and do it better than we did the day before :)

M@rla said...

Heh, boys are ALWAYS a mistake, to some degree or another! Glad to see you so determined, chumbawumba gal.

Brooke said...

Good for you! Way to be strong.

Stamp Til Dawn said...

I've read several of your entries and can relate to so many things...I just turned 38, obviously live in the same part of the country and...unfortunately...gained back almost 20 pounds that I worked so hard to lose.... I'm working on re-motivating myself and getting back on track. It's nice to read your experiences and know that I'm not alone.

Good Luck!

Dawn

me me me said...

Hey! Was kinda passing by and just wanted to say "you go girl!!"

Boonzie said...

And that is Denise, rocking the casbah!

I am taking your positive attitude today and channeling it towards myself. If only I had read your blog before I scarfed those M&M's at lunch...

chaos-girl said...

You go girl! You can do anything!

And of course, Michael Buble solves all of life's troubles **swoon**.......

ms ralph said...

This was so good to read. I'm proud of you.

Amanda said...

'atta girl!!!!

DaFFy said...

Gotta love those endorphins!!
You go girl!!

Plantation said...

Yay for positive news!