Wednesday, January 19, 2005

Things that make me happy

Wednesday morning. So, one of the things I said I was going to start doing again in my newly rededicated Ten Percent Challenge was talking about things that I'm grateful for, things that make me happy. This list could be really, really long, because I have a lot of things to be grateful for, not the least of which is my good health, safe home, and loving family and friends. However, in an effort to really focus on the here and now, I'm going to exclude the obvious answers and dig a little deeper.

Today's featured thing that makes me happy/grateful came to me while reading another weight loss blog. After reading today's entry on this site, I am so very grateful that I'm still going strong in the same way I started on this journey in June - focused on loving myself and my body, rather than full of self-hate and loathing. This journey, for me, is in no way fueled by desperation or the need to be thinner for any reason other than my health and the ability to get out and do the things I want to do. I will hold my hand up to my heart and swear to you, right here and now, on my Grandma's grave, that, if I never lost another pound and could be assured that my health would not be compromised in any way by staying at this weight, I could be happy here forever. I couldn't say that back in June because I was so physically uncomfortable and also hadn't started on the mental journey to wellness, either, but I can say it now, proudly. Let me say it again, I could be happy at this very weight, in this very body I have right now, forever and ever. I don't care that I'm a size 18/20 and weigh (as of this morning's little peek on the scale) 203.5 pounds, I'm happy, gosh darnit, and that makes me very grateful indeed.

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