Thursday, July 22, 2004

All fed up and nowhere to go

Thursday afternoon. I don't want to be here (at work). This is not entirely uncommon but it's worse today than usual. I want to take a nap or make some coffee or just sit on my balcony admiring my blooming hydrangea(sp?) and feeling the cool breeze caress my face...anything but sit here in my office watching the world go by and responding to emails. I don't want to count things or calculate things or create presentations or any of it. Not this afternoon. If I were not the founder of the World-Famous (ha!) Ten Percent Challenge, I'd be downstairs perusing the delights of the vending machine in the cafeteria. For better or worse, that option is not available to me because junk food no longer interests me (double ha!), and I just don't know what to do when I'm feeling disaffected and am stuck in the office. I'm choosing to grumble to myself internally and contemplate escaping early without telling anyone. Grumble, moan, whine, kick.

It also appears that my photo hosting service is hosed up because this site looks horrible and I can't log in to their site to check the status of my account. Grr. This is not helping my mood.

On a positive note, I went out and walked last night for the first time since I got back from Colorado, and it felt really good. I'll be doing 35 mintues, 24 seconds tonight and tomorrow night and then it increases to 39 minutes on Saturday. I was amazed at how far I walked last night, as it was the first time I'd walked over 35 minutes on my usual route. I'm really pretty proud of myself, considering that I was having a tough time committing to 20 minutes just over six weeks ago. I know that it's way too early to declare any kind of victory over my slothful nature, but methinks it's a very good sign.

I really need to find more interesting things to write about because I'm boring myself now. Ugh.

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