Thursday, June 03, 2004

Nothing much to say and plenty of time to say it in

Thursday evening. It's amazing, you know, how quickly the vacation glow goes away. Sigh. I'm already back into the "stressed out, I know I'm forgetting something" mode, although not nearly as bad as before I left. It's just a function of too many things on my plate, terrible organizational skills, terminal procrastination, and really bad karma (at least, that's what I'm blaming it on).

I'm still planning to put all of my hand written notes from my trip into an entry here, but it might be this weekend before it actually happens. I know, yet another procrastination opportunity!

Weight loss and health - what to say? I ate what I wanted while I was gone, but I never binged, and that's a good thing. I also drank plenty of water and, while I only hit the workout center once, I did get a lot of natural activity in with all of the walking we did. I am, however, highly motivated to get this thing on the road again because being this big just sucks. No, I didn't have to endure the humiliation of asking for the seat belt extender (thank you God!), but I felt uncomfortable in some of the seats in the baseball stadiums, which is odd because I'm not that big side to side. Mostly, though, I'm just fed up with thinking about it. I don't want to have this be an issue for me any more. I don't hate myself, I don't hate that I have to do this, I don't hate anything or anyone...I just want it out of my life so that I can make room for better, more interesting things.

I've got my healthy meals ordered for tomorrow, so I just have to get through tonight and tomorrow afternoon and I'll be home free. I'm going to stop at the grocery store to pick up water and some skim milk so that I can make my lattes at home from now on, which will save me money - always a good thing.

Speaking of money, I've put together a tentative monthly budget because I'm sick of always scraping by from paycheck to paycheck. I make a good amount of money but it just dribbles away like water because I'm so bad about my spending habits. With food taken care of and no more eating out, I should be able to really focus on getting things taken care of financially, which will reduce my stress immensely, too.

Is this the most boring entry I've ever written, or what??? It's just the post-vacation doldrums, so don't give up on me yet!

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